A Note to Self: "It's quarter to three..."

"It's quarter to three..." is the first line from my favorite Frank Sinatra song, "One For My Baby." I've been thinking a lot about Frank lately for obvious reasons.

Funny enough, it really is quarter to three in the morning and I really don't want to go to sleep. In a few short hours I'm going to bury my father and something inside of me is saying that if I don't go to sleep then tomorrow will never come and Dad will still be with me. I know this is not the case. I will eventually fall asleep and this time tomorrow I'll never see my father's body again.

At this moment in time I really can't explain what I'm thinking or feeling. I know Dad is in a better place now. He isn't suffereing anymore. This is what I wanted. This is what I asked God for so many times, "Please God, take my Dad today." So, if this is what I wanted why do I feel so sad? Well, perhaps I'll find the answer over the course of time and between now and then I'll listen to Frank and think about Dad.

Listen / Download: One For My Baby - Frank Sinatra